It's time....

It's officially time to put a gun to my head. I'm sick of having headaches everyday because of stress. I don't want to take medication either...I'm not sick...just sick of having stress in my life and there's no way to get out of it. I don't want to be a pill head either...friends have died from abuse of pills. Knowing me, I'd abuse the shit out of them. Quit my job? Yeah, right and then stress over not having a job. Quit thinking about the past and how I've been screwed over repeatedly by my stupid s0-called friends? Yeah, right. Tell me how to put the past out of my mind...without drugs. Tell me how to rid myself of the people that stress me without going to prison for the rest of my life. It seems very strange that I've had headaches for months and have only gotten worse since 7-19-05... Monday thru Friday 8-5, you can count on me having a headache and now they won't go away til after I've been home for a few hours. Sometimes I wake up in the AM with them... I honesty feel like going on a killing rampage...the kind you read about in the paper. The sad part is I've already got a list.