I didn't do anything...

I sat around all weekend...ok not really. I didn't go out anywhere for fear of someone trying to talk to me and I didn't feel like making conversation with idiots or hearing someone say "smile". I'd went out Wednesday nite with Sister Kelly and saw Ray Wylie Hubbard and had a good time...he's a real nice guy. Anyway, I should've went out to see Dale Watson on Friday nite since it was Cammi's birthday and she was in town for the show from Austin. Heard there was a big party for her and I've already saw lots of pics on III's site of it. I've been so depressed lately that it's all I can do to function with normal activities but hopefully in time I'll be back to my old self as long as I stay away from the one that makes me sad. I will have to test the water again soon and I don't know if I'm prepared for it or not. The last time I saw the person that makes me sad, I got on a crying drunk and don't remember driving hundreds of miles home...witnessing your worst nightmare coming true is too much for me. I saw the train wreck long before it happened and all I could do was ask if something is wrong. When the reply is always no, one would think nothing is wrong even if you're in a motel room with the one that makes you sad and his phone rings while he's in the shower and you see the name on caller ID. When you ask why she'd call @ 3 AM, it's explained away and swept under the rug. I knew then but refused to see the signs...I'd seen the signs before but looked away for fear of someone thinking I'm jealous.
Ok...back to the original topic...I did yard work, bathed the dogs, did laundry and went to the neighbors and hung out with her at her pool. Yes, she finally apologized to me for being a fucktard. She insulted me III times in one day so before I left, I told her husband that I thought it was best I leave now before I drown your wife in the pool for being fucked up and insulting me and he totally understood. I guess he wants to secretly kill her also...
On Thursday, I'd thought about doing a rain dance for northern New Mexico because it seems that there's a drought in that part of the country but I was scared to do it. I've got a lot of pent up energy waiting to be released but I didn't want to flood them and people to die in rushing flood water. It gave me great pleasure to watch the weather channel this weekend and see that they did indeed receive rain. I hope it was enjoyable for them as it was for me...